Clean House

I would love a clean house for Christmas. My house currently is nothing short of disgusting. I have not been able to get out of bed for more than a few hours, if that, in weeks.

The dirty dishes are piled up, the kitchen table has papers everywhere, both guest rooms are a disaster, the bathroom well, I can't even talk about the bathroom!...I don't even know where to start and to be honest...I wouldn't get very far.

Every time I try and do a little something I either get really sick and end up vomiting or something stupid or I start freaking out because there is just so much to do and I can't do it and I have a panic attack. I hate living this way.

I would really love to decorate for Christmas. Christmas is my jam. But I can't possibly get started on that until some of this crap is cleaned up. You can't decorate a big pile of crap. That's just fact.

So I don't know if its wrong to ask for something like this for Christmas, but I would really like a cleaning lady, or cleaning service, or maid or whatever is the PC term. I'd like someone to come and clean my house really well. Especially the bathroom and kitchen. Ugh.

(Everyone keeps asking how I'm feeling. Im in some pain today, about 7/10. Average for me. Was in the ER yesterday because I was in a lot of pain and was calling UVA all morning with no answer. Couldn't keep anything down. Tried phenergan, benedryl and naproxen with no luck. Couldn't even rest. The doctor there originally wanted to do a spinal tap but changed his mind. He was very rude and condescending to me, made me more upset and crying only makes the headache worse. I've never been spoken to like that by a doctor, or anyone really. I felt like he was accusing me of using drugs, etc. every time we go to that hospital, I say never again...and there I was back again. I never learn. I was there for 8 hours and was in worse pain than when I arrived. I don't know how many more days like this I can handle, especially knowing that I have nowhere to go for help on days when it's really bad.)